I decided that I will move on from charter school. I began working for a particular charter school about three weeks ago. It was full of orientation, preparing the classroom and getting to know people. There were certain things I should have foreseen, such as:
1- Why are there so many new people?
2- My co-teacher has no experience in teaching and flaked out from a fellows program – spoil alert – big red flag.
This week, I realized that I am going to leave the position. It wasn’t an easy decision since I have invested my time and energy. I had hope and an optimistic view into this new journey . However, I realized that when my co-teacher became an associate (sort of like a teacher’s assistant), all the burden would be on me with 27 students (some with IEPs).
I realized that stress was building up inside of me, the daunting task of managing behavior as well as assessments. I still love teaching and I still believe in education. Maybe, mass education is not for me. Maybe, I am going through the wrong route.
Then I realized I have strengths. I loved tutoring one to one student, giving my undivided attention, differentiating lesson plans, and speaking with parents.
So I am going to be a full-time tutor, and make a difference in that way. I am also considering a brand new hobby and growing within the social media into new avenues.
So stay tune,
I have been learning so much from my cousin’s baby. Yesterday, she learned how to balance on her two feet for a couple of seconds until she fell right on top of me. Today, she had an infant walker in front of her. She is able to pick herself up by bending both of her knees and lift herself up with her upper arms on the walker. She accomplished the goal, which was lifting herself up from the floor. Next, she puts herself back on the floor by bending her knees, and slowly releasing her upper arms from the walker.
She kept on bringing herself back from the floor only to release herself from the walker back to the floor. I jokingly told her granny, “you see that is how she keeps herself fit by exercising the way she does”. I suddenly released that she was trying to practice on how to balance as well as positioning her body.
I am not sure why I thought to myself “she is practicing on how to pick herself right back up after going down on the floor”
I realized this is how life is, by going through our own ups and down be it in relationships, work, school and life in general.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about how much I want to continue to grow and improve in many aspects.
Right now, I want to take an opportunity to improve on money, health and time management as well as organization. I am also seeking to learn and know Jesus and Mary better as well.
I feel that I have to say no to many things that will be an obstacle or a distraction to my inner peace of mind. All I need is quiet time with God, more prayers and a good book.
I am especially thankful to you readers for accompanying me on this journey.
These are the things I learned from last year:
1) I learned that I must take care of myself physically, spiritually and emotionally.
2) Reading spiritual books and prayers helps me understand my relationship with God.
3) To give yourself another chance and do not give up.
4) God, Jesus and the Mother of God are always present, so don’t give into the temptation that you are alone.
5) That any problem has a solution.
6) Stay calm and keep on.
7) You cannot change a person unless they themselves want to change.
8) Every day is a new beginning.
9) Prayers can move your soul, mind and body. Having a conversation with God is beautiful.
10) Rosary, Bible and the Sacraments are your life line to get you to heaven/state of peace.
I am so thankful for so many things in my life. I have been busy lately that I would like to give the 411 on what’s been happening in my life. I am working for a preschool where I am a Spanish instructor. It’s amazing what a few bilingual books and some songs can do to help build a curriculum. Everyone is informative in instructing me on what works/ what doesn’t work when it comes to teaching. I love that this environment is one that is able to help and give good constructive criticism.
I am thankful for my friends, coworkers and boss. They are nonjudgmental and love me for who I am. I love it when they tell me the truth even when it hurts. I enjoy their company and laughter.
I am thankful for my home, food and health.
I am thankful for my family. They love me unconditionally even when I do wrong or make a mistake. They are supportive and help me become a better person everyday. Te amo familia.
Last but certainly not least is my thanks to Dios. Te amo con todo mi Corazon. Y mis metas para proximo ano es apender mas de tu amor.
Amor y besos a todos.
Feliz dia de Gracias.
“When dark clouds cover the sun, like the eagle I will try to brave the billows and make known to others that the sun is not dying out” (The Diary of Saint Maria Faustina Kowalska)
For the past couple of weeks, my sister and I were discussing the ways I could finish off my nursing degree. Then one day, my mother asked me if I thought nursing was for me. After some thought, after what have been months and months of questioning and reflection, I came to the realization that it was not.
I have found that I study very hard to grasp scientific information. I have certainly developed a greater appreciation for science as it pertains to it saving lives, healing, creating and curing.
But now, what was I going to do, since I have spent the past four years preparing to become a nurse? A couple of months ago, I was so busy taking care of my handicapped aunt and elderly grandmother, and so I did not have time to go into “despair mode” over not knowing what was in store.
Yet, while in their company, I realized I had many talents, gifts and things to be grateful for, such as my health, ability to take care of them, my skill of translating between two languages for the health professions that visit my grandmother, the ability to walk and take them to places, my gift of patience, compassion, forgiveness, and understanding.
I tend to be very critical of myself, but I realize I have strong gifts and talents despite not having the ability to grasp science and its terminology.
So, I encourage you to take a moment to reflect and appreciate your gifts and talents and to be grateful for them because God has given these gifts so that they may be shared with others.